Mother

It's cliché to say the misery started at birth; but a fact is that every generational trauma starts even before our parents met. The earliest memory take me back to when I was younger I always felt angry, in the family photos I looked angry on purpose because it wasn't as happy as everyone posed it to be. Why am I so focused on healing trauma and breaking toxic patterns? I am doing it all for her: my inner child; so my daughter or sons (or its/them) don't have to suffer.

When I am having an emotional break down in front of people and then apologize continuously because now I feel guilty for expressing myself honestly. She has my cat. And I can't heal without her.